Its the most important day of the year, definitely THE MOST important. It's our saviors birthday, Jesus Christ in a form of a human but 100% God came to save us all from our sins no matter how much the depth, the width, the gravity.. Because HE came once and for all, to end sufferings and never ending cycle of darkness only if we allow Him to drive our life.
Today I write here to rant (i guess) as I have been struggling with my faith for a year already.. YES, a year! And its crazy, hella crazy!!! I am in so much pain, my heart is full of hatred and I just wanted to disappear in this world. I kept and kept and kept trying to go back to HIM and surrender everything to Him, but I just kept on sinning again and again and again, kept hurting my mom because I am hurt by her too. I can't forgive her yet but I wanted to because it felt like she never appreciated everything I do for her. That she only cares about my sister and kept on exclaiming with how great my sister is. I have so much grudge in my heart and its been eating my life away. Away to darkness and hate and suffering.. As if I've never know Jesus because pride and hate has eaten me alive..
But today, I have to do something about this attitude, this lifestyle, I dunno, I guess this never ending cycle of sin.. I have to end this today!!!! For today I am once again reminded that Jesus has already won the victory!!! And I need Him more than anything else in this world, to surrender everything Him, for life is meaningless without him.
Nothing in this world is worthy, but you.. JESUS. Thank you for your faithfulness, I honor you and will always praise your name forever and ever..
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What are you grateful for this 2020?
1. Survived this pandemic, I mean we're healthy and does not have COVID
2. I still have a job, great team
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Christmas is not about us, but about CHRIST
1. GOD is Love - He is the source of love
We have to fill our love tank first before being able to give love, so where do we fill our love tank? From family? Friends? Workmates? from a boyfriend?
Really Kathy?
Love is about value, love is connected to value.. Example I love my wife means I value my wife, its more than just a feeling or affection but by making them a priority in life. Putting them first before yourself, when you love something you value it..
God loves you because He loves you regardless of your goodness neither badness.. Its because He loves you, He simply loves you!
"God, out of His great love and value for us, gave us His most precious giftL His only Sonm Jesus Christ"
the ultimate demonstration of God's love for us is that Jesus went to the cross to sacrfice himself so that we can be forgiven of our sins and have an eternal life.
Christmas is a celebration of God's love for us.
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